33 replies to this topic

[stewie]

i have been going through this non ending cycle of depression, i recently changed cities with a different lifestyle, work, school..... etc and now i barely can get myself out of bed.
iv been taking days of work, ignoring classes, and i cant even sit for 5 minutes with my new roomates before i have to get up and head out somewhere alone, iv got no freinds and i used to have a gf but we recently broke up, and with all this,,, insecurities began to build up where im starting to feel im not good enough for the people i sit with or that simply there is something wrong with me
it hurts........

[extremevet]

go to the doctor. if you had a broken leg you would go to the doctor. depression can be fatal if untreaed.

[deadweight]

I feel ya bro.I myself live in depression.....Its a demon that keeps calling my name.....Its a sickness that takes controlls u and the only answer is Nothing....Some days or better then others......Im sure there are meds out there for depression but personally speacking its become my best friend.....Some can handel it some cant i just roll on with the punches till death comes knocking.......All i can tell tell...be strong and try to get yourself back in gear.......Only you can move and carry on..good luck with your demons of depression.dw

[ceejay]

Recognizing your struggles is the first step toward healing. We are here for you, but I do think you may need to speak to someone in person. (DOCTOR)

[vindiesel]

I think that anti-depressants treat the symptoms not the cause. The only anti-depressant that really helped me is Prozac: it made me feel high and as if nothing bad could happen to me. I was relaxed, cheerful and easy going when on it. When I stopped taking it, I had a bad relapse though.
Go and see a doc, stewie. I really hope you'll feel better soon. Take care!

[geebman]

Hang tough brother...I went through depression about 6 years ago after I lost my mom from a long bout with cancer. I ended up going to the doctor and started taking Paxil. It pulled me out of my depressed state of mind and I have been fine ever since. I was going through a lot of struggles during that point in my life and the meds really made the difference for me. They helped me pull my mind out of hte dark place I was in.

Don't let these feelings of depression go unchecked bro. Take the steps to help yourself...

Good luck...stay strong

[greenleaf]

i have no experiance with depression except for learning a little about it in school but you sound bad to me brother and if i were in your shoes i would talk to my dr about it. nobody ever wants to admit they have a problem but if its bad it probably wont go away on its own and it could even get worse. obviously im not qualified to give you advice but if i were you i would try to surround myself by things that make me happy and seek medical attention. it can be something simple that one ppill a day can cure or even a simple life style change. good luck bro and i wish you the best and if things ever get really bad feel free to pm me.

[piotr]

i've had similar problems to what you've described bro since i was a kid... that feeling of being uncomfortable and insecure around others that you mention has always been a big one for me... thick anxiety... and you just wanna be alone so you dont feel it right? but then you feel more shit in a different way because the last thing you really need when you feel like that is to be alone... GO SEE A DOCTOR... it couldn't hurt... there are medicines out there like anti-D's that will help to at least some extent... get onto it ASAP and try nip it in the bud... when i was younger i let it slide and started turning to alcohol and drugs to numb my mind / pain.... you dont wanna go there....

are you at university perhaps...? is there a counsellor / psychologist at your school that you can see free of charge...? if so i think THAT should be your first port of call bro...

keep us updated and good luck...

and by the way you've got PLENTY of friends here...

PIOTR

[redspy]

Look into the supplement SAM-e (S-Adenosyl-L-Methionine). In a number of clinical trials it's been just as effective as anti-depressants without the side effects.

Out of 39 unique studies considered, 28 studies were included in a meta-analysis of the efficacy of SAMe to decrease symptoms of depression.

* Compared to placebo, treatment with SAMe was associated with an improvement of approximately 6 points in the score of the Hamilton Rating Scale for Depression measured at 3 weeks (95 percent CI [2.2, 9.0]). This degree of improvement is statistically as well as clinically significant and is equivalent to a partial response to treatment. Too few studies were available for which a risk ratio could be calculated for either a 25 percent or 50 percent improvement in the Hamilton Rating Scale for Depression. Therefore a pooled analysis could not be done, but the results generally favored SAMe compared to placebo.
* Compared to treatment with conventional antidepressant pharmacology, treatment with SAMe was not associated with a statistically significant difference in outcomes (risk ratios for a 25 and for a 50 percent decrease in the Hamilton Rating score for depression were 0.99 and 0.93, respectively; effect size for the Hamilton Rating score for depression measured continuously was 0.08 (95 percent CI [-0.17, -0.32])).

Source: - http://www.ahrq.gov/clinic/epcsums/samesum.htm

[stewie]

i've had similar problems to what you've described bro since i was a kid... that feeling of being uncomfortable and insecure around others that you mention has always been a big one for me... thick anxiety... and you just wanna be alone so you dont feel it right? but then you feel more shit in a different way because the last thing you really need when you feel like that is to be alone... GO SEE A DOCTOR... it couldn't hurt... there are medicines out there like anti-D's that will help to at least some extent... get onto it ASAP and try nip it in the bud... when i was younger i let it slide and started turning to alcohol and drugs to numb my mind / pain.... you dont wanna go there....

are you at university perhaps...? is there a counsellor / psychologist at your school that you can see free of charge...? if so i think THAT should be your first port of call bro...

keep us updated and good luck...

and by the way you've got PLENTY of friends here...

PIOTR

yea piotr, you just wanna be alone so you dont have to deal with all that constant stress
as for the drugs and alcohol, honestly im well deep into that by now
i wish things would be normal for a change.....

im going to look for a counsellor on campus first thing tommorow

and i really would like to thank you all who posted back
it shows some people out there care...

[piotr]

i've had similar problems to what you've described bro since i was a kid... that feeling of being uncomfortable and insecure around others that you mention has always been a big one for me... thick anxiety... and you just wanna be alone so you dont feel it right? but then you feel more shit in a different way because the last thing you really need when you feel like that is to be alone... GO SEE A DOCTOR... it couldn't hurt... there are medicines out there like anti-D's that will help to at least some extent... get onto it ASAP and try nip it in the bud... when i was younger i let it slide and started turning to alcohol and drugs to numb my mind / pain.... you dont wanna go there....

are you at university perhaps...? is there a counsellor / psychologist at your school that you can see free of charge...? if so i think THAT should be your first port of call bro...

keep us updated and good luck...

and by the way you've got PLENTY of friends here...

PIOTR

yea piotr, you just wanna be alone so you dont have to deal with all that constant stress
as for the drugs and alcohol, honestly im well deep into that by now
i wish things would be normal for a change.....

im going to look for a counsellor on campus first thing tommorow

and i really would like to thank you all who posted back
it shows some people out there care...

i know its easy for me to say from an objective point of view and in hindsight compared to how hard it is for you to do it in your position, but get off the booze, meth, coke whatever cocktail's your poison cos it's got a strong tendency to get outa control... at the least just cut it down to a bit of booze so your at least minimising your chance of getting locked up... you need to keep in control as much as possible bro... that other shit will make you lose perspective and fuckup your decision-making...

GOOD LUCK BROTHER... get back to us in a bit and let us know

PIOTR

[greenleaf]

i agree. get off the drugs and stop the HEAVY drinking ASAP. im well aware how they fell as if they help hide the problems bt in the long run they make it soooooo much worse. now this is something i do know what i am talking about. you can not hide from your problems behind drugs and booze. trust me, it never works and when they wear off your problems will still be there and they will usually be worse. a few years ago my car was hit by a drunk driver and my girlfriend was killed. i spent alot of time trying to hide behind a bottle of vodka but my problems never got better until i dropped the bottle and faced them.

[minster]

id say go to a doctor and see what he thinks-i know wellbutrin,trazadone,benzos work great for me without a doubt and it can mean a big difference on your "quality of life",which is most important for sure

[Razor D]

are you coming off a cycle without pct ?

[stewie]

no, test levels seem to be ok