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[tainowarrior05]

Man Ive been going in and out of jail for way to long. I keep going back for the dumbest reasons. In my heart I know God is telling me to give HIM a chance. But Im stubborn and know everything. So I fake the funk and get out anyway. But man , I know that the life Ive chosen is gonna get me dead really quick. I got out on friday again everyone, yup a PV (parole violation). And it sure feels good to be out, the same friends are waiting for me !!! The same ol crap ! Today, Sunday Morning I thank GOD for giving me another chance. I ask him to guide me and protect me cuz I have no idea how to live life correctly.. Thank you for letting me share this with you ppl.

Taino

Peace

[MissKBuff]

Sorry to hear that....you will find your way, it's just a matter of time, and determination

[mugzy]

eclipse, you've got to make better decisions my friend. If I remember right you have a young son to take care of ...... its been a while but I think thats correct. Your a good man, a ten year veteran of these boards and respected by many. Its time to man up and take control of your life, use the discipline you've learned in the gym and apply it to your personal life. Good luck to you my friend.

[vindiesel]

Glad you're out, tainowarrior. Try and focus on a better you, God will always be there for you no matter what. It's up to you to decide what to do of your life and I'm sure that you're a good person. We all make mistakes and we also learn from them. Take care and try to stay out of trouble. I'll keep you in my prayers.

[tainowarrior05]

Thanks for great replies everyone . I focus on things that truly dont matter. I have been on these boards and I dont like to share or give advice. I wrote this so I can read back on it and see what others have to say.

Mugzy , youre right bro. My son lives with his mom in Springfield, MA. I get him every summer if Im not in jail. I need to make a change within man . Because of my PV I lost my job. Or should I say because of me fu**ing up I violated my parole, which in turn I couldnt make it to work. So no job, no money to pay bills. Whats the first thing I do??? See how I can make ends meet. Illegaly is fast but will bring my butt back to jail quickly. So I need to look for a new job. But what about bills, food and all ? MAN am I stressed. I wasnt this stressed out in jail. Thats real talk. I am glad to be out, for real. Miss Kbuff, I am determined, dont get it twisted I dont have the time though. I need to do something NOW.

Thanks again everyone for letting me share. I dont do this often.

Peace

Taino

Thanks Mugzy if youre ever in PA. Holla at me..

[Darkhrse99]

Keep your head up! Take it one day at a time and remember the little things on the outside that you couldn't enjoy on the inside. Have you tried to contact your family members to see if they might help in relocating you to a different area to get a fresh start and away from the same old crowd and ways?

[tainowarrior05]

Yes I have Darkhrse, They sent me some cash. But to be honest bro, Northern New Jersey is no joke. Newark and Paterson are not for me bro. I rather stay in Central PA than to go back to the ghetto..

[ajdos]

Bro you got to find something positive that your passionate about- God, bbing, whatever it is- make that your life not going back through the revolving door- convicts had a saying way before the law- three times down and your staying for life- it held true for several of my friends- spending their lifes from their 20's on in a maximum security prison- take advantage of this new chance and make the most of it bro.

[piotr]

bro it sounds like you gotta get away from the same old crowd... i almost eneded up in jail a few years ago because of my greed and stupidity, and since my sentencing i stopped hanging around the dicks i used to and my life has imporved commensurately,.. it was hard at the start... no cash, no partying, i felt bored all the time... but i found a decent woman and tried to focus on finishing my studies and i can well and ttrully say i got things back on track... dude you can do it... theres nothing worse than being in jail you know that better than me... bro good luck

piotr

[tainowarrior05]

Thank you all for the good advice. Now that I am out I will be participating more on this board . Im glad I have someone to talk with or should I say type with LOL. Im looking at things now and I wasnt thinking when I did what I did. My thoughts were not SOBER one or righteous either and I paid my dues ten times over. Now I must move forward. You are all right . I truly appreciate your advice and will have to take heed to it or I may wind up back in the hole.

Peace

I will share more @ at a later time due to me running around getting them applications in !

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[MissKBuff]

NICE, that sounds great You have the right mind set now, hang onto that!

So many people underestimate the power of a positive mind set

[\SHINE/]

Bro you got to find something positive that your passionate about- God, bbing, whatever it is- make that your life not going back through the revolving door- convicts had a saying way before the law- three times down and your staying for life- it held true for several of my friends- spending their lifes from their 20's on in a maximum security prison- take advantage of this new chance and make the most of it bro.

Yup , damn good advice !


peace.

[Razor D]

i know here ex -cons can apply for grants to start your own biz , you have to have a real layout , and you dont have to pay it back , also you can apply for grants to go to collage ,all paid for ,food and living expenses included

[tainowarrior05]

Thanks Apollo , Thanks Razor D, and Thanks Kane for your input on this. Its truly appreciated.

Peace

TainoWarrior